There’s Been A Brief Hiatus In Proceedings

Well the last few months have been a bit different. No mega, epic trips or wild camps. Very quiet. On the other hand though, they’ve been anything but quiet.

Of course, Geoff and Jamie have had their kidney operations and thankfully, both of them seem to be recovering well and getting back to some sort of normality. I know that both of them have been on the receiving end of a huge amount of support from friends and relatives, and our thanks and love go out to all those folk who’ve been there for them.

The thing that not so many know, is that I’ve had a bit of a break in normal proceedings as well. Over the winter months, I’ve had a major re-occurrence of an anxiety issue.

This last hit me badly when I was in my twenties (A long time ago, I know!) but I’ve felt it creeping up on me for some time. It suddenly walloped me and knocked me sideways however, a couple of weeks after Geoff’s op. Not the best timing unfortunately, but these things take no notice of your plans.

Not sure whose camera this was, but Sam took the photo.

My GPs have been wonderful and I’ve been assessed and am on a waiting list for CBT (talking therapy) although I am already starting to feel much better. But in amongst all of this, it was also discovered that my blood pressure was rather high. I’ve always had a tendency to be on the high side of normal, but it had reached the point where they wanted to do something about it. ‘Risk Management’, they’ve called it.

I’ve no doubt that some of you out there will think I’m rather daft, but I actually found being put on blood pressure medication a bit of a mental challenge to start with, although I am sensible enough to know it was the right thing to do! Geoff has been a great source of strength to me through my woes, as have a few wonderful friends that I’ve badgered over the last couple of months. Thanks to all of you, good friends are very precious.

And so, hopefully, fingers crossed, we are now both ready to move forward again. We have #ghostcamp no. 5 coming up this weekend, which I’m really looking forward to, and this will also be the first time Geoff has carried a heavier weight in his backpack since the op. He’sย  not going to be rushing around or covering any great distances, but it will be great to be out together with friends again.

Then next week, Pebbles and I are hoping to finally finish the second half of the Pennine Bridleway, from Hebden Bridge to Ravenstonedale. We’ve already done the first half over various weekends, but I’d like to get it done and dusted now. For the first few days, Geoff will be meeting us with the van each night, but we’re hoping to wild camp for the last couple of nights before Ravenstonedale. Hitting a lot more agricultural areas than the Pennine Way, it’s not quite so easy to wild camp the length of it, but it has so far been surprisingly pleasant walking. And of course, being a bridleway, it’s eminently suitable for walking with a dog, as there are no stiles.

And wouldn’t you know it, just as #ghostcamp no. 5 is fast approaching, the weather is changing to heavy wind and rain, and thunderstorms…… ๐Ÿ˜€


20 thoughts on “There’s Been A Brief Hiatus In Proceedings

  1. Hi Chrissie
    Sorry to hear that you have not been well. My best wishes and I hope that your recovery is fast. You have had a lot of extra pressure over recent months, especially with Geoff’s operation and let’s hope that things settle down again soon. Enjoy the ghost camp and the Pennine Bridleway.

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  2. Do you know what’s at the bottom of your anxiety issues? I’d have thought being in the outdoors a lot would sort that but obviously it isn’t doing. Maybe all the planning which goes with backpacking doesn’t help? Hope you feel better soon – must be awful!

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    1. Hi Carol, the outdoors does help an awful lot to be honest, but it’s probably very deep seated. I lost 2 good friends to riding accidents when I was a teenager and this has come out before in counselling sessions. Losing both parents in quick succession in the past decade has likely added to the recent state of mind I suspect. Never actually had CBT before but hopefully it will give me strategies to help.


  3. I do wonder how we can cope with so many external pressures, and just glide along, especially when supporting family & friends. And then, as you say, “wallop”. Anxiety is a state of mind that can be paralysing. You’re going out with Geoff, friends, doing what you love. What better therapy?

    Oh … I feel a D Ream number coming on.

    Best. Elpus.

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    1. Thanks Phil, yes things take their toll and sneakily add up don’t they?
      You’re absolutely right though, out in the hills and on camps with friends – these are both priceless and amazing therapy ๐Ÿ˜Š


  4. Head squirrels can be rotten sods, you have my sympathies. I found cbt helpful when I suffered from depression some years ago but just occasionally they come back to haunt us. I hope it gives you some help and relief from it all.

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    1. Hi Justin, ‘head squirrels’, I like that! Everyone who’s had it seems to really rate CBT. It’ll be good to learn some strategies to try and deal with it sneakily trying to creep up on me again.


  5. I think thatโ€™s the scary thing about mental health. Despite all the medical advances, the brain and its wiring is still something of a mystery and these sorts of things can hit anyone, any time without obvious cause. Hearing about the losses you have been through and with the emotional support youโ€™ve been giving Geoff maybe has just left you more vulnerable. Hope the CBT helps as Iโ€™m sure a dose of good friends and wild camps (and doggy love) will. All the best.

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  6. Don’t know you well enough to say anything profound or clever, but do hope you are able to navigate your way through this and am thinking of you. Mental stuff is so complicated – what one person can seemingly sail through might take someone else out at the knees. Take care. xx

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  7. Enjoy your outings with Geoff, friends and your beautiful dogs and I hope it goes some way to helping you through this difficult time. Our minds are strange but very powerful. I have heard CBT is very, very good and fingers crossed Chrissie it works for you. Take care ๐Ÿ™‚

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  8. Chrissie you are a marvel. I am sorry things have not been so good for you. In many ways I can relate to the difficulties you are experiencing. Just recently I was rushed to hospital due to a severe allergic reaction to a type of antibiotic the doctor prescribed. This is not the first time this has happened;. Taking tablets always makes me worried and stressed.
    You have been through a lot recently. Some folk would never have coped in your situation. Like many others out there I wish you well. If there is anything I can do to help, just give me a shout.

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    1. Thanks for those kind sentiments, Dawn. Yes, tablets can often be totally necessary life-savers, yet at the same time a bit of a worry!
      I know you’ve not been having things so good recently either and wish you well, too.


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